Thursday, May 9, 2013

Scraping Bottom


          “So he arose and went to Zarephath.  And when he came to the gate of the city, behold, the widow woman was there gathering of sticks: and he called to her, and said, Fetch me, I pray thee, a little water in a vessel, that I may drink. And as she was going to fetch it, he called to her, and said, Bring me, I pray thee, a morsel of bread in thine hand.
And she said, As the LORD thy God liveth, I have not a cake, but an handful of meal in a barrel, and a little oil in a cruse: and, behold, I am gathering two sticks, that I may go in and dress it for me and my son, that we may eat it, and die.
And Elijah said unto her, Fear not; go and do as thou hast said: but make me thereof a little cake first, and bring it unto me, and after make for thee and for thy son. For thus saith the LORD God of Israel, The barrel of meal shall not waste, neither shall the cruse of oil fail, until the day that the LORD sendeth rain upon the earth.
And she went and did according to the saying of Elijah: and she, and he, and her house, did eat many days. And the barrel of meal wasted not, neither did the cruse of oil fail, according to the word of the LORD, which he spake by Elijah.”
This story from 1 Kings is very familiar to me. I’ve read it many times. I’ve heard it preached from the perspective of both the prophet and the widow. Just the other day I got a new insight on this scripture. I was led by the Spirit to think from the perspective of the barrel. I was in one of those melancholy moods that come over me from time to time. I know there are people who never lament over the rocky road life chooses, but I’m not one of them. That day, my particular shortcomings were center stage among the woes on my mind. Yet, despite my oblivious flaws, everyone wanted something from me. I was empty. No one seemed to care; the requests kept coming and disasters kept springing up. I had nothing more to give—or so I thought.
That’s when the Spirit brought this story to mind along with the startling revelation that I was that meal barrel. It seems that, unnoticed by me, there was a small measure of meal stuck to the bottom of the barrel. I was reminded,  “the barrel of meal wasted not, neither did the cruse of oil fail, according to the word of the LORD…” The sun came out. The birds began to sing and the curly headed boy beside me found comfort by holding my ear. I can’t say I was full, but I knew the little I had been given was enough and that it would never fail to sustain me and mine through any drought.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Only One Pair of Shoes


“How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning!  how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations! For thou hast said in thine heart, I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God: I will sit also upon the mount of the congregation, in the sides of the north: I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the most High.”

There is no more tragic character than the being who is expert in that which he has never lived. Lucifer studied God and was convinced he could be a living deity of equal skill. Though a third of the angels applauded him, Lucifer lost his exalted position in heaven.
Adam decided God was a liar. Adam believed that he could attain divinity by defying God. Adam lost paradise and access to everlasting life in fellowship with God. He became a cursed creature destined to be reduced to dust.
And so it goes---for there is nothing new under the sun.
There is no end of people who neither live Christianity nor have an open ear to it’s teachings. That is their choice; no godly person denies them that freedom. Yet it rankles the conscious of the worldly wise that others choose to embrace Christianity. They profess to have honestly studied religion, and from that study, possess the knowledge of what it takes to be Godlike. It seems no one understands God and holiness like those who deny the power of both. None seems able to understand Christianity as those who denounce it and refuse to experience it. (Strange that these same people are such advocates of experimental knowledge.) Paul warned Timothy those who are wise in their own eyes are “Desiring to be teachers of the law; understanding neither what they say, nor whereof they affirm.”
“Who can understand his errors?  cleanse thou me from secret faults. Keep back thy servant also from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me: then shall I be upright, and I shall be innocent from the great transgression. Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.”

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

The Sound of Falling Trees


If a tree falls in the woods and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound? The question is not as silly as you may think; neither is the answer. That’s because the question is really asking: is man the center of all reality? Can anything not certified by the human senses be real?
There comes a point in every life when we must answer this question with eternal finality. If reality exists only in the years of this life and within the realm of six senses, it is nothing but a pointless exercise in bio-electrochemical futility. Eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow, we die! What else is there for those people who are the center of the universe? We die and all reality crumbles into blackness.
If however, as your spirit tells you, there is more to life and reality than this and we are not the big picture, then what is?  A being so powerful that he could create the universe with his words, surely would not be interested in the likes of us. What interaction could we possibly offer?
The answer is love.
For forty years love has awakened beside me and walked through each day with me. Love returns to me in my children, their children and their children’s children. Love scratches at my bedside every morning and roots its cold nose under my hand. To love and be loved; we are created for no other purpose.
Love begins and ends with God. God is love. “And Jesus answered him, The first of all the commandments is, Hear, O Israel; The Lord our God is one Lord: And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment. And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.”

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

There's A Moon Out Tonight


The Arbuckle’s crowd began to thin out just after midnight, even the casino traffic was light; nothing unusual for Thursday night. Tomorrow would be a different story though not everyone in the bar would live to see it. Waylon and Willie extolled the virtues of a good hearted woman from speakers mounted high in the corners, but  failed to coax the bar’s patrons from their seats. The brave souls still hanging on were huddled in tight little groups of two or three. The lone exception was a short, square shaped man wearing a black leather jacket over a loose fitting cotton shirt and faded jeans of the same color. His worn boots were better fitted for combat than a night on the town. His dark hair was beginning to thin on top and streaks of gray showed at his temples and in the thick moustache he wore. A sweating bottle of Bud sat untouched on the bar in front of him. He was more interested in the three people sitting at the table near the door. The objects of his attention, a woman and two men, were oblivious to his focus on them.

The newly reconstructed Arbuckle Hotel and Casino opened a month ago to great fanfare. For the most part the customers were still locals, but with Memorial Day only a week away tourists were beginning to turn up. The bar was a muted oasis separated from the bright lights, harsh bells and buzzers in the casino by thick opaque glass. When the music in the bar faded, only the faint mechanical echo of the slots nearest the bar called to those within. The bar was typical casino modern; stark lines, black leather and polished nickel booths on red carpet. Stylized animals in traditional colors looking down from the walls reminded customers of the casino’s native heritage. A light blue fog of cigarette smoke hung a foot below the ceiling only slightly disturbed by the shining ceiling fans. The yeasty smell of stale and spilled beer had already worked its way into the walls and carpet.
At last call blue suited security men made their hourly walk through offering friendly waves to those still drinking. A few of the locals offered waves in return. Weapons and badges sparked the thirst of the man at the bar. He turned to his beer with bowed head. His interest lasted as long as it took security to make their way through the bar. His eyes wandered back to the trio near the door. He knew who they were. The couple, in their late twenties, called themselves Tom and Jen Waite. Their younger companion was Jon Frye. All of which was a lie, but one needed to be called something besides “Hey you” and one name fit about as well as any other. If anyone cared to inquire, and the man at the bar had, they were in Arbuckle to buy horses. Why in the midst of a drought and the declining value of hay burners anyone would be buying horses was as much a mystery as where they got their money in the first place. No one at the bar was the least bit curious about any of this. The only thing people really noticed was that they were an attractive group.
The woman’s coal black hair moulded itself around a thin face with a sharp, straight nose, high cheeks and full lips. She wore a sleeveless, green and lavender print, chiffon dress that draped seductively over her smooth, cinnamon skin. Even in flats, she was as tall as her companions. The men appeared to be brothers no more than a couple of years apart. They shared a thick shock of black hair that mirrored the color of their deep set eyes and a strong, square jaw. The elder of the two wore a simple white polo stretched over a muscular frame and twill khakis. The younger wore a gray and clay plaid Ariat whose long sleeves weren’t quite enough to cover all the ink he sported. Creased denim jeans someone took care to iron hung over his alligator boots. He wore a gold stud in the shape of a dog in each ear. Conversation lapsed at the table following the last call. Moments later, Tom and Jen headed back to the casino. Jon, determined to close out the Arbuckle, ordered another drink.
Security returned at one fifty nine. They were firm, but polite, the bar was closed. Everyone was invited to enjoy the casino and come back again tomorrow. The man in black left the bar alone. The rest of the customers crowded their way back into the casino.
The spring air outside hinted at the birth of morning frost. Tufts of silver clouds scudded across the dark southwestern sky. Vernon Parker, the man in black, searched the sky. The moon was lurking somewhere behind the thin cloud cover. Vern watched his sigh linger in the air; turned left and walked toward the park. His hotel, The Springs, was almost a half mile away along surface streets. It was half that distance through the park. Vern crossed the parking lot weaving through the scattered cars. He waited on the curb for a blue Honda headed west on Central. A soft breeze coaxed his coat closer. He pulled the zipper a little higher. Vern shrugged off the cold, smiled to himself and stepped into the street.
Two blocks south the buildings along Pine Street opened up to manicured lawn backed by a tall wrought iron fence broken by a huge travertine arch. Big Springs State Park was spelled out across the arch in matching black iron. The arch was lit by a pair of up lights set into pedestals. The park beyond the gate was dark; the tall oaks black silhouettes on a deep violet sky. Vern paused at the gate to light a cigarette and check his watch. He was being followed. The moon broke from behind the clouds turning the path  through the park into a pale thread running into the dark mass of trees. The gentle splash of an artesian fountain to his right was the only sound Vern could hear. He checked the sidewalk behind him. No one there. Vern started down the path.
Thirty yards ahead, oak and elm spread a canopy over the path. Moonlight worked its way through the leaves at broken intervals. The gravel crunching underfoot kept Vern on the path. The path round a bend and his footsteps picked up an echo. Vern froze listening; straining to hear a repeat of the echo. His eyes strained and searched the surrounding dark. Something moved. Leaves rustled just left of the path. A soft step; coming closer. Vern heart pounded in his ears. His mouth went dry. Despite the chill air, sweat broke out on his forehead and ran down his back. Something moved again, louder this time and closer. Vern crouched in the shadow of an oak and tried to slow his breathing. A twig cracked sending Vern’s heart into his throat. A loud snort broke the stillness. The attacker abandoned all pretense of stealth and charged. An involuntary yelp escaped Vern’s lips. He bolted. A dozen steps told him that he was never going to outrun whoever was coming, but fear had him. Running was no good. Vern spun to face his attacker. His feet tangled and he fell---hard.
A deer burst onto the path from the cover of a clump of undergrowth cedars. The doe paused to watch Vern crabbing frantically trying to get away. Sensing no threat from the figure on the ground, the deer slowly walked into the trees. Vern began to breathe again; in great gulps at first, but then, slowly a normal rhythm returned. He was shaking with adrenaline induced waves of nausea, but he was alive. Vern lay back onto the path staring up at the moon and hoping it would pass quickly. When it did, he began to giggle.
“That was goooood, real good, Vern,” he said. “What a hunter you are.”
Leaves stirred along the path; a twig cracked in the wake of the deer.
“Oh, no you don’t, not again,” Vern told the dark.
A low growl answered. That was no deer. Vern scrambled to his feet and vainly yanking at his coat. Eyeshine, red and menacing glowed from the trees. The guttural growl came again as ten feet away a black shadow stepped onto the path. Moonlight shifted, slanting through the trees and the shadow became six feet of black fur covered teeth and claws. Wolf and human; both and neither; it crept closer on misshapen legs. The foul scent of decaying flesh wafted from its open jaws. Five feet; a  long hand reached for him; clenched and open, clenched and opened. Three feet; Vern’s arm tangled in his coat. Jaws and hands opened wide. Vern’s eyes squeezed tight. The world exploded.    

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Amazing Grace


It’s amazing that people whom we strive hard to serve treat us with contempt while God embraces us for the smallest effort. That’s grace for you. It’s not that God doesn't care about how we serve Him. But God accepts the fact that we make mistakes; we get distracted or we’re just plain slow to catch on. God doesn't excuse failure without consequences, nor is He indifferent to it. God recognizes weakness exists side by side with sincerity and works to turn that weakness into strength. God is not as willing as men to throw people away. In fact, He continues to invest in people long after they have cast Him away. He sends the rain on both the just and the unjust because He’s willing to bless without regard to the return on His investment.
Grace is not dependent on works, that is, it is not earned and cannot be earned. You don’t have to do x, y, and z to find favor with God. It’s only necessary to receive it by faith. Amazing. Jesus told His disciples, “Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.” There’s no requirement for the recipient to prove himself worthy. Grace gives without regard to merit. “Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.”

Tuesday, March 19, 2013


“But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.”                                                                                          Paul of Tarsus

A Christian should be of the mind that his thinking and opinions will run contrary to those of society in general. Moreover, he needs grace to accept this with joy. His successful life will not necessarily look like success to his neighbors. This should come as no surprise since we are using a different yardstick.
There is no inherent wrong in recognition, fame or riches. It is not a sin to be physically attractive or talented. These things can be a stumbling block, but they are not wrong or undesirable in and of themselves. The real harm in the world’s vision of success lies in the fact that attainment is the end of greatness--the supreme measure of personal worth and success. No matter what you tell yourself, the desire to be wealthy or famous is simply to satisfy the self; there is no other purpose. But we need not be as high-minded as that. It is not money, but the love of money that is the root of all evil. It is as easy to be a poor sinner as a rich one.
Insistence on your right to respectful treatment, kindness and fairness can bedevil as easily as uncontrolled avarice. Whenever the object is self-satisfaction and defense of image, (as God told Cain) sin lieth at the door.” If Christ suffered outrage upon His person with silence and forgiveness, can Christians do less? If you curse a cashier or waitress, have you elevated your worth; have you put them in their place (below you)? I think not and what have we done to our soul in the bargain?
It is the soul of a man that endures. Whether we are rich or poor, it is what we do with what we have that matters. Godliness and the grace to accept God’s plan for our life with contentment and trust we not only give us peace within, but will last an eternity. A godly man builds other men. By lifting them up, he is lifted. A line in one of my favorite songs says, “Heaven waits and the angels are applauding the man who lives his life by faith.” What have we greater than the angels; yet they applaud with joy over one sinner who comes to God.
Are you thankful for what God has given or are you worrying over that one tree He has said “no” to? The scripture says He has given us all things that pertain to life and godliness--can you be content with that?

Monday, March 18, 2013

Growing Grace

“Ye therefore, beloved, seeing ye know these things before, beware lest ye also, being led away with the error of the wicked, fall from your own steadfastness. But grow in grace, and in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.”  
----St Peter

Peter, leaving his discussion of the world’s end, left for his readers an unfailing recipe for life---grow in grace. Here’s the thing, grace is the unmerited favor of God. The scripture says, “for by grace are ye saved through faith, it is the gift of God, not of works lest any man should boast. Therefore, we receive salvation as an act of grace. That is, salvation is not earned by practicing certain behaviors or by believing certain doctrines or going to a certain church. Grace is a gift given by God to men who did nothing to earn it. If grace is a gift from God, then don’t we simply possess the amount of grace God gave? But, if we can’t grow grace, why would the Holy Spirit tell us to grow in grace?
Let’s tackle the first question. The answer is relatively simple. We possess the measure of grace that God has given to us as an individual. “According as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.” This measure of faith is the grace that will lead each Christian to his rightful place in the body of Christ. We can do less, but we cannot no more than God gives us grace to do. Paul, plagued by an unspecified thorn in the flesh, prayed for relief. The answer to Paul’s prayers was, “My grace is sufficient for thee.” Evidently the measure of grace God gave Paul was enough for his situation, no more was coming even though Paul thought it might be necessary.
We cannot get, nor do we need more grace. The scripture urges us to grow in grace because we need to understand and appreciate the magnitude of the gift we have already been given. To grow in grace is to spend our life discovering that God’s grace really is sufficient. His divine power has given to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, including grace for every situation. But, let’s face facts, many times we are anything but gracious. Growing in grace is learning to tap into His grace in every situation. This is especially true in difficult times.
It’s easy to blame our lack of graciousness on stress, fatigue, or other people’s behavior. The truth is we have done nothing but turn our back on God’s invitation to grow in grace. I realize that little gem of truth doesn’t make it any easier to be gracious to obnoxious people. Who ever said being godly was easy? An equally hard truth is that practice makes perfect. Meaning that God wants us to be gracious and will send us as many tests as it takes for us to achieve it. The upside (yes, there is an upside) is that knowing this is half the battle. Practice grace. Bless when you’d rather curse; help when you’d rather watch a fool flounder; pray for those you’d rather have as prey. In other words treat people like you’d like to be treated--say, haven’t we all heard that somewhere before?